Hello there dear reader,
How are you all doing today? I am a little sad but I napped a lot and now I am feeling a little bit better...
My life has been insanely interesting, pun intended... I remember in school when some people joked around with mental health problems and talked about the hospital in Nokia called Pitkäniemi. I thought: "That is so interesting..." Maybe I felt like the people who go there are different and felt like I am also very different. I did not know WHY I was different. I found out in 2007 that I have aspergers and adhd. I went to all the tests in Stockholm because I lived there then. As a child I was actually bullied for ten years in school, from the first class, the very first day until 1997 in the fall when I got ill finally and went to Pitkäniemi to get better.
IF I could see my bullies and look them in the eye, I would say: "I forgive you. Just try to pull your life together. You can do it. Remember this lesson and learn from it. BYYEEE! :)" Sometimes still I feel the feelings like in my "muscle memory" some things that they did. They wet the chalk board sponge and threw it in my face. Oofé 'I can still feel the humiliation. But let's not dwell on all that negative poop.
I want to remember the good things. Being sometimes a kind of a control freak I get anxiety if I think about EVERYTHING I learned in school and not being able to remember it all so well anymore, that sucks...
Now I am a kind of hobby crazy lady :D I have my cats, they are my children of the furrier kind.
I collect Barbies and other fashion dolls, there are probably thousands of nuggets of information about this in my head :D I collect My little pony toys too, from the 80's and 90's... I read a lot. I watch booktube almost every day many hours often. I write in my journals, to a few magazines and of course these my blogs. I listen to music while doing everything :D Showertime: music, foodie time: music, knitting: music,writing: music... etc you get the idea. :)
Oofé nowI need to do some eating and watch.ing of the youtube. :D
BYYYEEE! :P
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