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A slice of my life blog post :)

 Good afternoon from the cold and distant but friendly country of mine: Finland! 😊

Recently I have really been enjoying my life. I know, life is not easy, nor is it supposed to be easy, but it being easy doesn't mean it cannot be enjoyed. If you know what I mean... From time to time I have problems with my mental health, physical health, emotions and feelings. Here are a few things I have really been enjoying lately:

- My faith in God and getting stronger in faith.

- My mental health improving significantly and becoming happier.

- My beloved friends and family, my bonus family and my new friends online and irl.

- My political party and the things I can do to help them there.

- My own courage increasing, my self-confidence becoming stronger and my understanding expanding.

- All the good things I can do (small things) that make the world a little better place.

I have had seasons of great depression, worry, anxiety even. I can feel really good in the morning and feel really bad and sad in the evening. It can sometimes change after a few minutes, back and forth. I have borderline personality disorder, where my emotions are all over the place and the spectrum. I also have ADHD and Aspergers., It's not fun. But one thing that IS fun, is the fact that my diagnosis got changed a few years ago here in Finland, when they finally agreed with the diagnosis I got in 2007 in Stockholm. Finns can be really stubborn, even the psychiatrists. hahhhah! 😀

I can say (right now, today, this moment) that I really love life.

Why do I love life? Because it is a gift, it is precious and it is VERY short. It is a blink of an eye, a beat of a heart, a small speck of the vast pieces that make up the universe. I am nothing, yet I am everything. We should learn to love ourselves and keep on cheering ourselves on. I have met so many people who do not treat themselves with the love and respect they deserve. Many people are a lot harder on themselves than on others. We should love and forgive ourselves. We can learn from our mistakes and get up and do it. Whatever it is that scares us, that we think is important. For example, I have embraced that if I don't do it now, when will I do it? Who will do it? I was kinda scared to join the party I am in now. I was worried I wouldn't be accepted or understood. BIG mistake. The party I belong to is so nice and the people so friendly.

IF you notice spelling mistakes in my text today, I am sorry. I am just so excited...

There is a fact that many people might not know: 

When you see your own worth, and act accordingly, many many many people will see it too. If you feel alone and/or misunderstood, the first thing you should do is: (if you believe in God or a higher power), you should try to think about why He created you and how does He view you? Do you think God would have made something worthless or something that is not capable of amazing things? Everyone is very important and everyone can do and decide to be good. Friendly, caring and helpful. I know there are a lot of mental health issues in many people's lives. Those problems do not define you, they do not make you a bad person or weak or whatever. I feel that God loves us all and thinks we are all amazing.

OK. That was a lot of info for you guys. Hope you could appreciate this post. 

Have a great time of the day, whatever it is! 

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