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Another day, another adventure!

 Good morning from Pleasant Grove, UTAH! 

I have had so much fun here, I always want to remember the good and exciting things that have happened here. Of course, no trip can be complete without some difficulties... I got really heart-broken yesterday. It feels like some "friends" really like to mess things up for me and I also mess things up often. If it doesn't work, it is not meant to be. If the guy you like isn't brave enough to like you because this reason or that, he is not going to be able to withstand all the other "problems" that might occur in a relationship, and I am often too eager and too much of many things, I need a strong, stubborn guy who doesn't choose the easy way out. Someone who sticks by me, doesn't run or hide when some dumb people try to gaslight me and discourage us or something. I am letting go of this situation, give up and let it be. I know that God will see to it that things will go as they are meant to go. I am listening to music with my headphones and it helps me a lot. Music is great therapy.

All this being said, I am not bitter. Yes, I am sad, yes, I am angry... But bitter? NOPE.

I am going to look forwards. If some guy who REALLY likes me, pops up at some point in my life, I will be more ready, and a lot stronger. Sorry, this turned into a relationship -advice blog... Oopsie! :D hahhah! And that right there is strength and perseverance! Laughing after such a tragedy! It is a miracle.

Yesterday I went to a play thing with my friend and her children, it was a shame I am not a mother nor do I intend to be one before the second coming. The play thing was at a play are and there were like so many moms and their children there. I am not even married! What a shock for them hahhha! :D I noticed YET AGAIN the rigid gender roles that is prevalent in some cultures and especially in the culture of the religion I belong to. I don't really care for those, sorry! 

This blog is turning out to be a little political, a little relationship advice -heavy and opinions about stuff.

I am doing a lot better than yesterday though. I cried and sobbed for a long time, snot was running down my face. All make up was GONE, baby, GONE! :D lol. Awful. I must say that people tell me that this thinner air in Utah should be making me depressed... I don't think that is true for me. I have been feeling pretty good... With the exception of yesterday. 

I went to B&N yesterday, the second most sacred building for me here in Utah lol. 

(The most sacred being the Temple of course.)

I love to see the Temples here. There are so many!

Ooh, I forgot to tell you, I am going to Gran Canaria in October. I will be there alone the first week, and then my mom will join me the second week. I am SO excited! I have become more independent, self-confident and I am so much braver. Thank you, hardships, for teaching me!

At B&N I bought three books and one reading journal. I can post a picture here in a while... I also are a pizza roll thingy and a piece of chocolate cheese cake or something. I drank a diet coke. Then Ellinor picked me up and we went via Yummy's and ate ice cream.. I took a quart pint or whatever it's called. Four flavors: liquorice, Bubble gum, rainbow and peach at the bottom! YUMMY indeed. I was heart broken so I really ate my feelings away yesterday! PHEW. It helped though.

I am feeling a lot better. :) Tomorrow is Sunday, I am very nervous. 

More later! 

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