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Sunday morning...

 Good morning! 

Yesterday I went to the Temple: Saratoga Springs, with my friend Ellinor. It was so nice. 

A few observations of the Temple: It is so BIG! Wau. Also, the people smiled a lot more and also were not at all stressful or anything. I really love the Temple. It is the best place to go when you're sad. Last post was weird, so sorry... I feel often like people misunderstand me on purpose! It is very frustrating.

Then they often put unreasonable expectations on me. Like: "CHANGE! NOW! Do this, do that. Your illness is just an excuse!" etc. Well, first of all, I don't have my diagnosis for nothing, you know. If you except perfection from me, you will be very disappointed. I will need to stop waiting for perfect understanding and sympathy from them! That's it! Easy. lol.

I am done with people (at times).

Also, they tell me not to judge anyone. Then they turn around and judge me. Way to go! 

It is easy for me to judge other people who love to judge me and others. It is an evil circle. HA!

I often don't understand why some of my friends are angry or upset with me... I really don't have a crystal ball or anything. They tell me some things they think I am doing wrong and I don't understand how that is upsetting to them?!? My mind is flabbergasted often. Boggled. I am a living question mark...

I better stop thinking about this because it doesn't help trying to figure it out.

I just wish to be left alone at times. Yesterday I slept three hours after my visit to the Temple. 

So far today I have chatted with my mom and auntie through WhatsApp and just listened to music and I took my medicine, Yes, I have medicine that help me through the days. I have been taking medicine since I was 17 and became ill on my mini mission. So a looong time.

Soon I am getting ready for the day. 

More later!

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