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Today I am going to SLC!

 Good morning form "beyond the pond"!

How are you, reader? LOL. Hopefully doing well. I am almost always very happy in the morning, heart-break or no heart-break. A new morning is always a new morning... Like Anne of Green Gables said: 

"Today is fresh, with no mistakes in it"

(YET) hahhah! :D

Today I am going to the store named Smith's to get some drinks and other digestible things, some sweets like Reese's maybe, nerds or something, and fruits and berries. I am on the hunt for Root beer barrels (hard candies). I don't know yet if they exist anymore... Wish me luck!

Yesterday we had a cookie walk with the ward my friend belongs to. 

My mom sends me messages on WhatsApp daily, she is checking in so I am still alive and well. Before the flight here I was scared of flying again, because I hadn't flown since 2019! I was a bit "rusty"... But it went well, my feet didn't even get swollen! AMAZING...

I am so sorry for mentioning it again, but I feel like the past year and a half I have grown a lot. Before I used to be so stupid and naive... I also know that I have more self-confidence and I don't tolerate people being unfair or mean to me. Also, people being hypocrites is a new pet peeve of mine. I have noticed we are all hypocrites in some way. 

It honestly feels like I am just starting my life. 

Because I have had many mental health issues, I haven't been developing as I should have. I know people don't understand this. They think I am making it up or flat out lying. Well, your opinion on this matter doesn't matter! Also:

"Age is a matter of the mind, if you don't mind, it doesn't matter."

Also, people STILL want me to settle for some man who is right for me ACCORDING TO THEM! THE AUDACITY! No, really. I am still considered less than. It is a label people like to stamp my forehead with... IT IS NOT FAIR.

The more I try to explain this, the less they listen. Oh 💩 

Since I am between crushes, I think, I can tell you what kind of man I want.

- international (that means not a typical Finn, preferably NOT a Finn)

-  speaks at least English WELL (Swedish and/or Finnish a bonus)

- is younger than me (DUH!)

- an RM and very dedicated to our faith

- taller than me

- fun to be with and makes me laugh

- puts up with all my issues and weird quirks 

- BRAVE. Will stand up for me and not ashamed of me in any way!!!

There. I said it. NO REGRETS.

IF you say things like "beggars can't be choosers", you can go and beg me for forgiveness. Because just because I am a "late bloomer" doesn't mean I don't deserve what I wish for... As they say in Fiddler on the roof (paraphrasing): "Even a person like me is entitled to some happiness!"

Over and out.



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