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Happy Fall from Finland!

 Good morning from Finland!

It seems that this has become my rant blog... SO sorry! I hope not to have so much to rant about today. 

I hope you're all doing well. I have been "busy" and when I am not, I often get a lot of anxiety. This country is SO DARK during the Fall and Winter. It sucks! A LOT! But my trip to Utah did change me in many ways... I don't feel as much anxiety and not so often as before! I have a lot more energy! My depression is better... Before I didn't care if my home was messy or all my stuff was wherever in my home. Nowadays I want to organize my things more and keep it clean(er). I want to organize my books, Barbies and other fashion dolls, my other collectibles and journals etc. I want even to DECORATE ETC.!!! That is a first! WAU.

I used to be so depressed, I didn't care...

That trip changed my life. I have also now dropped 20 kilos of my weight! WOW. I have a diet medicine and it makes me less hungry. Only problem is that I forget to eat and then I get cranky or upset or something. Maybe even sad. But I usually remember to eat after a while :D

I woke up a little before 5 AM. I had slept enough for now. LOL.

I am going to journal, read and study the scriptures. :) I have a lot of unread books...

More later! 

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