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Depression in the dark

 Good morninng or whatever time it is when you read this!

I hope you're doing well. I have been feeling a lot better than I usually feel in November. I think that my depression hasn't been bothering me for a while now. I am feeling a lot better, especially mentally. My right leg has a neurological damage and my leg is often very painful and I have no pain meds for it, because the pain is in the NERVE, no regular pain medicine can help and I have heard you get very loopy of the nerve pain kind of meds lol. I do NOT want to be loopy! Especially not from a medicine! 

I have been feeling a lot more stable and even in my emotional life.

I have been at home a lot. My friend Johanna helped me a lot many times when I needed to get around. I use a wheelchair outside my home. Because if I get a pain attack in my leg, I really can't walk and/or stand. Yesterday I had a lot of pain because on Sunday I needed to use my walker a bit at church. The pain came a little late, but it did come...

There is a website in Finland for people struggling with mental health problems:

https://tukinet.net/

There you can find resources in Finnish to get help from volunteers and people with experience.

I have been using on off for a lot of years. Whenever I have had bad anxiety and a crisis in my life, I have a support person that I can message and it helps with my situation always. It is really good. I recommend it really a lot.

Today I am going out to eat for lunch with some "old" friends. They are from the USA.

I have realized that I have a lot of friends in the USA. LOL

Oopsie! HAHA!

Today I will try to clean my home a bit and plan my day, read, write, journal and watch YouTube.

More later! 

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